after three years of being involved in a relationship, i was able to enjoy the gay party scene again. i visited malate for the second time last saturday and the place looked very different. everything is bigger, wilder, glamorous. but the sex was still there. when i went home, i suddenly realized how malate made me feel so unhappy...i don't know but in a way, going back there makes me realize how shallow my life is. sheesh. today, i viewed his friendster account. a testimonial from one of his friends made somehow confirmed my suspicions that he is actually seeing someone else. i don't know to react to it. well, it sucks...i am hurt...and i think i'll go and get another beer!