when nature said "stop quiet!!!!!!!!"

our house is starting to become a home again. maychelle's brother jay and his fiancee ate amie just moved in yesterday and occupied ryam's bedroom. it feels nice to go home now as compared to the past few days when i was considering robinsons galleria as "my home" (with chinese inscriptions...hehehe). just the idea of not being alone at home makes me feel so...relaxed.

before they moved in, maychelle and i discussed the pros and cons of this setup. pros: lower rent, food at home, possibility of having more furniture at home, and good company; cons: invasion of privacy, monitored moves (at least for maychelle), no more chain smoking, no more alcohol, and worst of all...restricted sex life.

now that i am looking at it, it feels like nature is trying to interfere with my single life and bring back things into their natural order. having my sex life limited to malate bars is enough proof. two days ago, my globe handyphone subscription (which i've been using to call up people like crazy) got redirected eventually. that's why i don't have a way of communicating with my men. to make things even worse, a humongous zit just appeared on my nose.

well, probably this is nature's way to slow things down for me. i've been trying to believe that i am taking things slow, but as a matter of fact ... i am not. in my mind, i believe that i need to enjoy my single life in order for me to move on. i've been trying to seek refuge in sex, movies, and music...just to forget just for a few months how it feels to be in a relationship. but most of the time, loneliness just kicks in and it's such a pain in the ass. in my heart, i know i am constantly looking for the ONE. and i don't want to take it slow...i want it now.

but nature said... "stop quiet!!!!!!!!!!!!!"... for some unknown reason...di pa talaga maaari ito. hay! may sense ba tong pinost ko? ang layo ng tinungo!