aux 9 - continuing education

Lately, i've been thinking about my life: the past, the present and the future.

With the recent events in my job, I've come to the conclusion that I could have done better, but if I did, i would have been more narrow in focus when it comes to what I've experienced. It's annoying to realize, but i think i've shotgunned my life.

I now have the option of becoming more focused with what i'm doing, but it will mean burning many bridges behind me. I don't think I'm emotionally prepared for that, so I'm on cruise control right now.

I enjoy the fact that i've experienced so much in my young life, but even though i now say that i have no regrets...well, I do. So many of my same-age friends are now in positions and jobs that are definitely one rank higher than my station in life, and though i know that i shouldn't envy them, I do envy the fact that they have more disposable income and freedom than I do. I can boast of having fulfilled so many of my dreams from my younger days, but that's the thing, isn't it: those dreams were from younger days.

I find now, as i grow older, that my dreams, goals and ambitions have changed. I want security, I want a stable job for the next few years, I want money that i can spend. it's not about being materialistic, just the thought that maybe most of my batchmates in school can probably buy their own car, live in their own apartment and actually start families, while i am still in the process of fulfilling my dreams of bygone days.

So when will I fulfill my dreams now? When I am even older? I may not have time. Let's face it: assuming i live long enough, a third of my life is done now. if i am to die early, i've got only 2/3 of my life left to do all the things that i want to do. Will I always be a step behind in making my dreams come true?

But wait; the thing is, I do fulfill my dreams - dreams which were not fulfilled in some of my friends. Is that a good thing? I can say that i've done what i set out to do - probably around a year ago. But now that i am about to be 23, am i close to my dreams when I was 16, or even last year's?

Perhaps i should have let go of those earlier ambitions.

I don't know; it's like having a map but no way to refer to it in my journey through life.

Do we cast away dreams that are meant only for the young?

Do we just follow the dreams of the present - to fulfill our needs and wants as our lives dictate at the moment?

Is the future simply a progression of needs and wants that change as we grow older - that our dreams are fickle, ever-shifting?

Should dreams be let go of?

I once dreamed that all i would need in life is happiness. Nowadays, what seemed so simple is so complex, that perhaps i should have been more specific.

I remember reading from a book by Salman Rushdie ("The Moor's Last Sigh"), about a man whose family had the habit of sleeping in times of trouble, to wake up in better days. I wish I, too, could fall asleep, and wake up to better days. But there maybe no better days.

Bah.

and so I should stick to my new credo in life: "Life is too short for sadness."

There's too much to do, too many dreams to fulfill, too many things - and now, I realize, at the right time - and so much of life to live. But I still feel like I've wasted so much time realizing that I have to live life, not dream it.

Well, hell yeah, I'm living my life too fast. Which gets me into thinking, I'm living my life as if I were an agent working in a call center on a shift with horrible forecasting and an unbelievably high volume of calls; one where in all agents are required to go on auto in without any breaks...even lunch. Maybe it's time for me to go on aux 9...take a deep breath and consider taking life's continuing education.

rhymes of the heart

i have watched you before in silence and i have seen the way you fall;

you do not care to see my yearning as i blindly heed to your call.

there are no words formed from the shaping of your mouth:

only the still, sharp sound of the piercing of your heart.

why must you break yourself against a heart that's made of stone?

why should you curse your fate of feeling so alone?

can you not see that it is you who chose this course?

you cannot take what is not yours for the heart is its own force.

the "ex" degrees of separation

it's funny how time conspires with time and picks on you, out of nowhere, with one blow of surprise...

dammit, i wrote this?

only my heart

i do not dare even try to paint your portrait
i fear my hands do not have the skill to capture the perfection of your skin;
the curves of your lips, the gentle stucture of your face...
there are no colors rich enough to show the deep glow of your soft eyes...
that gleamed more delicately than the first rays of morning when i first gazed into them.

i cannot recreate the glimmer in your smile
that captured me when first i caught it...
over words and laughter...
nor can i do justice to the beauty of your soul
that beckoned to me
through tears and hesitiation.

so instead i offer my heart
believing that it alone can express what my limited humanness cannot...
the joy of having been given this chance; these moments...
for it alone cannot be swayed and knows no distortion in its perception of you.

only my heart:
fashioned by a force greater than us both,
and tested by life and its many disappointments,
can truly capture that which the tangible world cannot.

my heart beats and i know it knows you...
memorized your flaws and seen beauty in them,
recognized your strength and awed at your goodness.

there is no music that compares to this rhythm in me
and there are no songs that compare to the moving power of your laughter...
your whisper...
your very breath.

my heart alone preserves my image of you...
ineffable and true;
a constant in a world of change.

a late valentine's reflection

love is only love if it tears you apart. at least that's what they like to tell you. love is supposed to be all-consuming. it's supposed to take all of you. the only problem is, it usually takes most of the good parts.

whenever people go separate ways, it's always hard for both people, the one who leaves and the one who gets left behind. there are always going to be sides taken. sometimes, everyone's on your side and sometimes everyone blames you. but almost all the time, you blame yourself. whether you're the dumper or the dumpee.

i have been both in my short life. you see, i'm one of those people who gives it all. or at least that's what most people say so. someone once told me that i give so much of myself and i nurture a relationship excessively to a point that i am unrecognizable without it. i need a relationship to a point that i no longer want it. it becomes something that chose me instead of me being the one who chose it. the danger is, i become prone to finger-pointing. to nagging. to questioning.

but the many times i have been left heartbroken and the many times i have broken hearts has taught me a lot. it may not be everything but it's enough to help me understand what makes it so difficult to be with someone. it's the same thing that makes it beautiful.

everything you think you know about life and love is never really the truth. it's the truth to you, sure, but your truth could be different from someone else's. we can probably go on and on comparing relationship mantras and hypothesize the ingredients of "real" love but the fact is, no two people may ever be able to share the exact same vision for their relationship. two people may be heading in the same direction but that doesn't mean that they see the same road ahead of them. one is always ahead and the other is always behind. but sometimes, with a little luck, both of you are running side by side.

that's my relationship mantra, i guess. he may not love me as much as i love him. or maybe he does but the way he expresses it is different. whatever the case may be, i am happy to have someone to travel alongside with. even if sometimes, the weather is bad or we get lost because one or the other is trying to take the lead or just trying to go a different direction. the important thing is whenever either one of us is falling behind or lost, we wait for the other to catch up. and if we happen to be that someone who is lost or trying to catch his breath, we just tell the other to wait. we tell each other what we need.

sometimes, it's words of encouragement. sometimes, it's just a little "break". sometimes, it's distance.

but most of the time, we need to walk. to take that slow stroll with each other and not just live through each day but to make each day alive.

so if you have that someone you're running with or walking with, remember that you may usually set off at the same pace but you don't always end up travelling side by side. sometimes, the other person may get tired of the track you're taking and see another one they want to take. and that's okay.

because sooner or later, someone will see where you're heading and find that they want to get there too.

"love is the hardest habit to break, and the most difficult to satisfy."

one bitchy line...

Forgive me for thinking so but only cowards attack with accusations or presumptions when you're not sitting face to face. It's like being on the phone with someone who has their aim locked on you and you don't know where to look.

transition

staying in the office has been my "hobby" for the past few days. Instead of partying and boinking, i decided that I should be more productive and render 18 hours of overtime work, which, by the way, is not easy at all. I didn't take in that much calls but then again, providing floor support for the transition agents is far more challenging. It's like dealing with my five multiple personalities all at the same time, which in case you didn't know are the following: the manic-depressive call center agent, the obsessive-compulsive coffee addict/rockstar, the paranoid gay man, the love cynic, and the jester. ;) it's as good eating razor blades.

now while I am killing myself by helping out the transition team, I am also undergoing my own transition from being single to being in a "relationship" with my almost-but-not-quite other half. We've been going out a lot for the past few days and I've even introduced him to my fraternal twin, maychelle...something that I do not do unless I know that he's ready for maychelle's vivisection.

my boy and I haven't really talked about relationships until recently when I had the courage to finally open up the topic and admit to myself that I, indeed, am courting him. It's not helping boost my ego, but what can I do? He's so goddamn sweet, that any moment now, I could be diabetic. It's good to see him open up, reveal himself to me, and let me know what's in store for me. He expressed his fear of being left alone eventually, just in case I find someone better...But then again it's a risk that we both need to take in order to give this a shot, because honestly, I do have the same fear. We should learn to love like we've never been hurt before. I believe that's one thing that we both need to learn.

up to now, I haven't really uncloaked my own fears. more than the occassional feeling of being isolated from the world because of exclusivity, i am fearing for my own sanity. i've been asking a lot of questions lately. what if i get attention-deficient? what if i can't make him happy anymore? what if after three goddamn years he leaves me again? what if being in a relationship wouldn't give me peace of mind and happiness like i thought it would? what if i can't meet up with his expectations? what if i am not really the person that he thinks i am and that i am only projecting one of my decoy personalities? what if i go crazy because i am thinking of all these things? what if? what if?

but i guess this paranoia wouldn't help at all. the fear will stop once you get there. it's just like going in transition at work, you'll never know how to take in calls, unless you start taking in calls. you learn and discover a lot of things along the way, things you will never learn in any theoretical training but instead you acquire because you dealt with people and touched them in some way.

much like in the state where i am in right now, we'll never really know each other's way of dealing in relationships unless we both let our solitudes greet, meet, and protect each other. sooner or later, we have to deal with it. i am just hoping that my rainbow will finally achieve its complete spectrum.

Testing 123 :)

stop breaking my shell...it's already been broken...

Rusty. My co-worker, my friend, my confidante, my heaven sent. A divine creature of heavenly beauty. Rusty's an achiever, a hardworking person who has an intoxicating, captivating, sexy mind! I've been an avid fan and witness to Rusty's many moments of joy and darkness and what I can say now is that he has proven himself to be a true friend, one that will stick it out with you through thick and thin. It's hard to find someone nowadays who can bring out the best in a person and he is definitely one of those. He is also a matured young ultrasensitive person who sets out his mesmerizing power on everyone he meets and is on the verge of discovering more exhilarating things about life. Socially adept, he is at ease talking to acquanintances and making new contacts. People have always acknowledged rusty's amazing sense of style, humour, and his ability to cheer up anyone, anywhere, anytime. I have always admired his keen sheer sense of humor. He is one or all of the following, musician/film director/dancer/actor/pharmacist/comedian/technical support representative of one of the largest isp/angel/etc./etc./anything cool you think of, and what makes its crazyness is that he delivers a 20 out of 10 in each field! Rusty is one of the few people who was literally ripped out of some medical book page, totally intelligent and interesting! You can easily single him out from a sea of people, walks ortigas ave like it's his runway, breezes through Convergys with poise and charisma. Once you get to know this person, you can't help but just get a taste of pure heaven! And maybe once you get to be acquainted with him, you will feel blessed like an angel and you'll surely get to thank all the gods of all religions! :)

infatuation vs love

Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.

Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away. Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.

Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing them."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship, which makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence. When they're away, you wonder if they're cheating. Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.

Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart. Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don't have. If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning.

-stolen from another journal -----> nyeta! plagiarist!

what's your purpose?

"not all wanderers are aimless."

--mona lisa smile.


i watched it last night with pat and maych at festival mall. it was expectedly as light and pretty as one would imagine. of course, i've always been a fan of chick flicks (one of my "comfort movies" is the first wives club) and while it wasn't that heavy on drama, it did boast some memorable lines (like the one above) as well as few warm moments.

tha main drive of the movie is, of course, to make one ponder what makes what you are choosing to do with your life worth doing. why are we all here? i used to think that i would make a difference somehow in anyone's life. and after exiting the cinema, my companions and i found ourselves thinking much about the future and about the options that we all have as educated, working youths.

it's always a question of "what can i do and how do i do it?". even just deciding upon a particular course to take or road to travel entails so much investment. your mind, your energy, your time. i think it has become almost like a sickness for my generation to be complacent with earning just enough to have a comfortable lifestyle.

there's always more to life than what we now know or understand. but we are always hindered from experiencing life fully. so many things stop us. fear. obligations. comfort. but if we are to truly embrace what we would like to call our own lives, then we must do so at any cost. we must be willing to sacrifice our comfort for change.

and that, my friends, is the thing i fear most.

they should ban movies that make you think about the future.

*urk*

your words melt my heart...

Dear...

When more than one week passes and I hear nothing from YOU, I feel as if I've done something foul to drive YOU away. When a simple week goes by with no words from your keyboard, I sigh and suppose that your extremely busy life keeps YOU from the computer. When a few days go by without one of your intelligent, heartfelt notes, I feel empty like a chalice with the wine split on the ground, unappreciated and forgotten underfoot. When a single day comes and goes with no kind thoughts or wise comments from YOU, I find that my computer looks "empty" to me, no matter what else fills its small screen. But worst of all, when a few hours pass without some electronically channeled sunshine from your fingertips, I'm the loneliest guy in Manila, the most forlorn soul in Luzon, the saddest person on any side of the Pacific...

Yet, paradoxically, all it takes is the slightest phrase from YOU into my quiet computer for me to transform into the happiest, most cheerful man in all of the world!!! As someone who truly LOVES intelligence, independence of spirit, good humored talk, sincere virtues, witty discourse, passionate openness, fiery affections and cast-iron
commitments, I SAVOR GRATEFULLY each and every morsel of your thoughts, as if they had grown on YOU and you'd plucked them especially for me!!!

When I was in China, I've NEVER even once met or talked to another Filipino or another southeast Asian person, apart from the other students in my school. My life has strictly revolved around studying my college, teaching English to my students, encouraging them, listening to their heartaches, going with them to hot springs and
trying in every way to be as unobtrusive and courteous as I can. Only when I'm home alone do I have the luxury of thinking and doing and saying what I want.

My life has been intensely rewarding but oddly lonely...until YOU unexpectedly came into my life and began to favor me with your perplexingly worded, always intelligent, betimes humorous, ever fascinating conversations.

My tongue...albeit an electronic voice...fails me whenever I ponder how best to express to YOU the sincerity of my appreciation for your steadiness and loyalty as a friend. Whereas I generally avoid most people due to their mincing flightiness, YOU are a welcome contrast with your more mature, balanced approach to your life. Sure, I easily sense the frustrations and aggravations which hem in your daily life. Being a man in these times can be so aggravating because of the pointlessly cruel prejudices of the ill-informed and the psychological predations of
the emotionally stunted. Your poise and courage in the face of such painful irritations, not to mention the complex situations within your family, is a real inspiration to me. As far as I'm concerned, you're a real hero for daily getting up and making the best of your life and never giving in to humanity's darker, more vengeful side.

It especially impresses me that YOU tend to be a resourceful individual, finding ways to cope with the complications of being xxx in a xxx. How I've become so blessed as to count someone as fine of character and as bright of mind as YOU is a continual source of wonder for me!!!

In honor of your faithful friendship to me, here's a terrific old song which won an Oscar for best song way back in 1954, when Doris Day sang it in "Calamity Jane". Called "Secret Love", it has a fine melody to complement the excellent lyrics, which I hope will please YOU...


"SECRET LOVE"
Lyrics by P.F. Webster
Music by S. Fain

"Once I had a secret love,
That lived within the heart of me.
All too soon my secret love,
Became impatient to be free.
So I told a friendly star,
The way that dreamers often do,
Just how wonderful YOU are,
And why I'm so in love with YOU.

Now I shout it from the highest hills,
I even told the golden daffodils.
At last my heart's an open door,
And my secret love's no secret anymore!!!"

There are a few little things about me which may or may not be of interest to YOU. For your better understanding of me, let me tell YOU a little more about the silly preferences which I generally follow, whenever possible... The fact that I tend to like these things DOES NOT at all mean that I dislike other things. It just means that I have a minor natural inclination toward these things...but I hasten to add that I'm always open
to new experiences.

**I tend to favor promptness, feeling that time is far more precious than money. People who habitually dawdle cause me discomfort, so I avoid situations where their dawdling might be a problem.

**On the other hand, I nearly always favor slowness over speed in any endeavor, feeling that anything worth doing is worth doing slowly so as to most fully savor the experience. Particularly with regard to good meals, I do not like to eat "fast"...I strongly prefer to fully enjoy each morsel and every sip of the wine. Although I have
few experience of having a lover, I'm sure that I would prefer to enjoy long, slow, tender lovemaking to the hurried, frenetic alternative.

**In public settings of any sort, even in small "private" parties or gatherings, I tend to be extraordinarily SHY and BASHFUL. I'm a great believer in public "restraint" or "reserve", preferring to retain all of my considerable
energies for more PRIVATE settings with my significant other or very close friends where I can "let go". My tendency toward public reticence has served me very well before in China, where public restraint, such as acrobat exhibits, is highly prized. But fear not, in private, with someone who I like, I can become quite voluble, as
the situation warrants.

**Likewise, I'm an especially keen listener. If we should ever have the great pleasure of meeting again in the near future, your words will fall on my attentive ears. Not only do I feel that a would-be gentleman (again, like YOU...) shows respect to others by listening carefully to what they have to say, but he also learns MUCH about
life and about the world by letting his friends be his teachers. After all, if they have fine enough characters to be his close friends, they must necessarily possess adequate common sense to also serve as his teachers in the art of good living.

**LOYALTY and COMMITMENT are two words which sound especially sweet in my ear. The atrocious tendency of most Filipino "people" to hop around from bed partner to bed partner like fleas in a brothel is something which I deplore. I'd much rather spend all of my life in solitary pursuits than to cheaply give my heart away to a different
person every night. Developing a lasting relationship requires an immense amount of TIME, PATIENCE and WORK...not to mention equal portions of FORGIVENESS and MUTUAL TOLERANCE. This can seemingly only take place where two people take a deep breath, smile at one another, hold hands and pledge to be loyal and committed to one another in spite of whatever momentary "temptations" come along.

**I'm a sentimental, gentle sort. Don't be dismayed by my stature...I always like the softer, kinder, more sensual approach to life, as opposed to the stressful, hard-driving, brutish approach that selfish people seem to wish to inflict on one another. Such events as birthday anniversaries, celebrations of minor personal triumphs and
holiday meals all mean a LOT to me. The very thought of someday sharing them with one particular, special person is more appealing to my sentimental side than ten thousand carefully selected words could ever adequately express.

**While I'm telling YOU a lot of my private values, PLEASE DON'T THINK for even a moment that these in any way apply to YOU!!! I'm very careful to distinguish between my own private values and those of all others. I'm not at all the sort of person who seeks to universalize my own inner values to others. Rather, I'm a bit strict on
myself, but I do my best to be tolerant and understanding of the differing values of others, particularly where I have a clear notion of the antecedents of their feelings. That is precisely the reason why it is of such great interest for me to know of your background, as it greatly helps me to understand why YOU feel as YOU do about so many things.

**Having lived in China before, a bastion of traditional Chinese values of courtesy, politeness and mutual respect, has reinforced my own pre-existing natural tendency toward well-mannered, courteous behavior. At least at first, I'm rather formal and quietly reserved, which comes from two things: my shyness and my
desire to avoid any unintentional cultural faux pas. But, as soon as I can feel that I'm being sincerely welcomed and that there is little danger of rejection or of discrimination against me, then I can rapidly open up and let my heart's abundant inner sunshine out!!!

**At the same time, I am definitely the sort of person who very much like hugs and physical affection. I detest "hitting, pinching or shoving" others, preferring a gently affectionate way of relating to others.


**I LOVE the combination of SPONTANEITY and INTELLIGENCE in anything in life. All great art, great songs, great literature, great dances, great food, and even great individual lives seem to have been constructed with equal portions of SPONTANEITY and INTELLIGENCE. So my dream life has been to seek and respond to strains of these two qualities in others. Of course, I recognize that in today's world of money-obsessed, conformist mass consumerism, these qualities are EXTREMELY difficult to find in others. But when they do crop up in someone, I am inevitably delighted.

Well, there YOU have a little symphony of some of my tastes and values. I hope that this was not boring or distasteful to YOU. It's just that I've wanted YOU to know me better, without getting bogged down on such meaningless trifles as "height, age, weight, nationality, blood type, sexual preferences (I have none of those...) or
eye color". Thank you so much for your continuing good friendship to me, which means more to me than I can say.

Your Friend, With Gratitude,

:)

pag-alis

Kung wala ka ng gustong sabihin
Wag ka ng tumingin ng ganyan
Kung bukas ako'y kalilimutan
Sana naman ngayo'y di mo na isiping ako'y tawagan
At habang may panahon wag na nating hintaying
Lumalim pa at masakit ng tanggapin
Ang pag-alis ng iyong liwanag
Na gumising sa mahabang gabi
Ika'y langit pero baka masanay
At di kakayanin ang iyong pag-alis
Kung wala ka ng gustong marinig
Ako'y aalis at mananahimik
Ang kahapon na nais kong limutin
Sana naman wag ng manumbalik at bigyan pansin

high school life...oh my high school life

Ang saya saya naman nito! Wala rin akong magawa kaya ineffort ko na rin... eto ang aking mga kasagutan!

1. Bakit ka nahuhuli sa pila bago mag-flag ceremony?

-- ala lang...kasi tumatambay pa kami sa classroom bago magflag ceremony. kung minsan di mo lang feel magflag ceremony tapos pag naabutan ka ni Betty Boop (principal namin), paglilinisin ka niya ng bakuran ng DMMMSU. yun lang.

2. Anong favorite mong bilhin sa canteen?

-- sa ober da bakod yung palamig tsaka yung hello waferstick. tsaka yung lumpia na may suka. kung minsan yung tomi tsaka palamig. suki ako dun kaya may christmas giveaway akong nakuha na tatlong hello waferstick. taray ng combination. sosyal ang dating!

3. Na-guidance/principal's/csde office ka na ba?

-- NAMAN! taray nun... hobby ng flipside noon ang pumunta sa office ni betty boop. o di ba laging nag-aamok si mam mabutas dahil sa pagsusuot ng hanging shirt ni skul girl, pagsusuot ni mila girl ng tshirt na may hati sa gitna, pag-aatend ng beauty contest ni ate kaye ng walang paalam, at iba pa. o di ba haggard?

4. Sinong favorite teacher mo doon?

-- tinatanong pa ba yun? e di siyempre...wala! in all fairness hindi kami close! ah alam ko na...si mam boado ba yun... yung nanay ni michael tsaka ni mark na sinulatan ko ng love letters tapos ang pangalan ko ay Jenny. mwahahahahaha!!!! ah oo tsaka si mam gacayan.

5. Sinong HATEST teacher mo naman?

-- si sir calicdan na lang... kasi no...pag di siya nakakaiskor kay mam calicdan, nginangarag niya ang mga istudyante niya ng PE. pero in fairness parang masarap siya nun. charots!

6. San ka usually tumatambay? Why?

-- sa mushroom, sa hallway. eh yun lang naman kasi ang tambayan sa school no.

7. What's ur most unforgettable experience sa high school mo?

--ay naku ang dami sobra. photogenic memory pa naman ako. photogenic? tanga! photographic! pero ang da best talaga yung mga miss universe session namin nila mitchie gal. at ang mga pag-eendeavor ni jonathan
sa pagkuha ng step ng sayaw ni janet jackson. basta ang dami...pramis!

8. varsity?

--sori di ako kasali. pang-beauty queen material ako nun. ako yung muse ng varsity. puro pagpapakyut lang ang ginagawa ko. at in all fairness hanggang cheering squad lang ang lola niyo.

9. Sinong una mong nakilala sa high school mo?

--kilala ko na nun si eric. hmmm...yung iba di ko na maalala. si nelson ata yung isa. kasi ang taray ng apelyido niya eh...LACHICAHHHHHH!!!!

10. Sinong mga kabarkada mo nung nag-graduate ka from HS?

--FLIPSIDERS... tsaka yung iba pa...pero in all fairness...ang bestfriend ko... si BRYAN ALBERTO! hehehehe!!!!

11. Na-mimiss mo na ba yung uniform mo?

-- one...two...three...NGEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! (mala-ang TV)

12. Ilang beses mo nang nawawala ung ID mo?

-- may ID ba tayo nun? ah oo, meron nga...yung malaki yung picture...dalawang beses ata.

13. Favorite teacher's quotable quote?

--"...WAG KAYONG MAINGAY! PRINSESA AKO!" - mam ceralde

14. Most unforgettable person? Why?

--Chris and Bryan...uyyyyy!!!

15. Kelan sa tingin mo dadating ang yearbook?

-- walang magaganap na pagdating ng yearbook...dahil walang yearbook!

16. I-describe ang mukha mo sa grad pic.

-- wala ding grad pic. shiyet!

17. Anong binibili mo sa labas tuwing uwian?

-- minsan dunkin...minsan fishball...minsan yung ice crumble...minsan yung palamig na maraming sagong maliliit...at eto ang da best...madalas Chika chika magazine! bwahahahahaha!

18. Nakakita ka na ba ng multo sa school?

---ummm...included ba si Honey Lai? diyuskolord...sumalangit nawa ito!

19. Nangarag ka ba sa updating/paghahabol sa graduation?

-- hindi...di ko nga na-feel eh.

20. Anung unang-una mong ginawa ryt after graduation?

--nagplano ng paglalayas papuntang maynila

21. Anong contests ang sinalihan/napanalunan mo?

--meron ba? ah oo nga isa dun yung presscon...gold medalist ang lola! say mo. eto ang nagudyok sa kin na meron din pala kong talento sa pagsusulat. pero wala lang yun. tangina magbasa nga ng balita di na ko marunong eh.

22. Kamusta naman ang Intrams?

--favorite moment: "manalo, matalo...cute pa rin kami!" puro kaputahan lang ang intrams. laging winner by default yung class kasi class lang namin ang may representative sa mga kakaibang laro. pero ang saya
saya kasi nagkalat ang mga kalalakihan tulad ni Rodan, Leo Paolo, Michael Angelo, at kung sino sino pa na pag naaalala ko eh sobrang nangingilabot ako sa sobrang jologations. hay layf. at meron pang horror house kamo...tradition na ata ito. naalala ko pa nun si melanie ami. di convincing ang performance... namura tuloy ng kaklase niya nung elementary. hehehe.

23. Favorite Janitor/Janitress?

-- si Luningning!

24. Kung papalitan ang color ng uniform natin anong kulay? Baket?

-- gusto ko blue na may sequins...charots...pero mas maganda kung khaki pants na lang tapos sana dapat uniform din yung design ng polo shirt. tsaka ang jologs nung pagkakatahi ng logo. sana maayos na rin yun.

25. Nasa friendster mo ba yung crush mo sa HS mo dati? Eh yung kinagagalitan mo to the nth level?

--yung crush ko wala...eh yung enemy ko nung high school? next question! chenes!

26. Did you ever regret going to ur HS?

--di naman...although parang mas masaya kung naghighschool ako sa poveda (hehehe) o kaya sa lasalle greenhills. leche ang guguwapo ng mga batang bakla ng LSGH. how i wish i was there para masubaybayan
ang pagbukadkad ng kanilang bulaklak!

27. Kilala mo ba kungsino ang nag-post nito at sino siya sa school?

--Rianne/Trixie

28. Sino sa mga ka-batch natin ang dapat napasali sa STARSTRUCK?

--si Melanie Amie...o kaya si Renee Schubert...eto ang da best...si MAGGOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

29. San ka na nag-aaral ngayon?

--nagtatrabaho na ko eh... ang pag-aaral ko during training lang kapag may bagong client... huli kong training for SBC Yahoo technical support. o di ba may alam na ko sa computer. di na ko masyadong jologs!

30. Sino ang peborit labs team of dem all mo?

--love your own...BRYAN-RUSSEL...susunod yung CHRIS-RUSSEL... pero madami ring mas masayang love team... tulad ng JONATHAN-ISABELO BRAGADO,JR. tsaka ENCY and her multiple personalities. di ba mas exciting. ehehehehehe!

31. Anu-ano ang mga section mo?

--"The cream section, science high" -- I just love this line!!!!!